I suffer from migraines.
I have since I was 12. They suck.
When someone says “I’ve never had a headache before” I’m literally stunned. I have a headache at least once a week but I don’t even care about that because a migraine is so much worse, a headache just seems so meh compared to it. There are way more painful and harmful things in the world and I know that, but I am frustrated.
I have tried EVERYTHING to help with migraines. I do this with every problem I have with my body. I try everything - I spend so much time trying to figure out how to fix it and I STILL suffer through the same amount of pain. When will my efforts be noticed by my body?!
I cried twice this past weekend out of pure frustration. I was sick with a cold all week and then the morning I woke up finally feeling better, I got a migraine an hour later. WHY. I take vitamin B2 capsules to reduce the amount of migraines I get and this is the one thing that has finally helped me (I used to get migraines 5-6 days in a row after the first one hit, it would be a long, tiring, painful week). With these pills I brought that number down to 1. This is amazing for me.
I had reduced it to 1 every 3-4 months and that was incredible, but the past 3 months I have had 1 every month. It is so frustrating. I was finally getting better from my cold and feeling so good. I was getting ready to go back to dance and then bam, I get a migraine. I don’t do well when I am not able to move my body for any amount of physical activity. It makes me feel trapped.
So…I burst into tears. I felt like a baby but oMg I was annoyed. Then I pulled myself together - slapped those sunglasses on and popped an Advil (last night was not mad real). I got to dance practice but had to just sit and watch because ya know my brain felt like exploding. I made it through the day and slept a lot. Then… the next morning the migraine was gone (which is normal now with these B2 pills) but then I got ANOTHER ONE. The whole day was ruined again. I cried. Again. I was so annoyed at my body. This one was even worse - I was in bed for hours and basically comatose for majority of the day (as my boyfriend put it).
Anyways, this was a blog expressing my feelings on a bad day. Things could be way worse but it’s okay to vent sometimes. I am writing this with my sunglasses on and the most dimmed computer screen in hopes I don’t trigger another migraine. Happy Monday!